It's been awhile since I posted anything on my blog-- a month to be exact. I have been so swamped trying to finish school and get ready for Paul to come home that I haven't had time for much else. Isaac had a birthday (cake pictures coming soon!), and we have had a full schedule with church and homeschool activities. Despite the busyness, the month of May still seems in many ways like it is crawling along.
Paul will be home a week from Saturday! What a blessing! Then we have our vacation and begin a new life together. We even have a week-long anniversary trip coming up this summer! (Paul's sweet mom is coming to stay with the kids!) Strangely enough, we both keep calling it our "honeymoon". It almost feels like I'm getting married next week!
I wish I could describe all of the emotions that swirl in my head, heart, and stomach right now. I am excited and nervous all at the same time, and sometimes it all seems so paradoxical. How can I be so excited and yet so nervous all at the same time? I've pondered it a lot, but I still can't wrap my mind around it!
The Lord has given me opportunities to share some of the things He's done for us this year, and I am so thrilled to look back and see how He's met us at every turn. Psalm 46:1 says, "God is our refuge and strength; a very present help in trouble." I just noticed today for the first time that my Bible (ESV) has a little footnote saying that the word "present" can also be translated "well-proved". He has proven Himself to be very big this year, and I love the idea of God being a "well-proved" help in trouble. Thinking of God being "well-proved" reminds me of the following words from the hymn "'Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus":
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him,
How I've proved Him o'er and o'er.
Jesus, Jesus, Precious Jesus,
O, for grace to trust Him more.
May the Lord continue to pour out His grace through all of the adjustments and changes that lie ahead. He is a very "well-proved" help in times of trouble (or in times of nervousness and excitement!)
